Feb 20, 2012

Looking back

Last year was the year of trial and tribulation. Sturm und drang. Helter Skelter. 
Okay it was horribly messy: I had to figure out how to care for my mom with her newly-diagnosed advanced cancer...my mom who had always been very mean to me, and selfish and needy all at the same time.


Today, I can now say this: After all the pain she endured last year, and after all the sacrifices I've made, I think she will actually beat this cancer.  Her doctors are very optimistic.  
Please don't say, "Oh she is SO LUCKY to have a daughter like you". 
I am sick of hearing that. I take care of her not because of LOVE but because of DUTY.
So there. I've said it. 
Orchard Beach in winter

6 comments:

Perpetua said...

Duty is a very under-rated word nowadays, Nerima. The fact that you could care so devotedly for her despite the way she has always treated you speaks volumes about you and I admire you for it.

nerima roberts said...

Perpetua, your words have touched my heart. Thank you.

Brian Miller said...

smiles....i love the hope you have and i hope as well for you both...i am glad you did your duty and understand your feeling there...it is hard...but you did it...

croneandbearit said...

hey babycakes - I think I was one of the ones who originally said you're such a good daughter, etc. (puts finger down throat). I so relate coz of taking care of the stepmonster when she had the C-monster. I did it out of duty and I h.a.t.e.d every moment. The things we do. I still maintain she's lucky to have you and I'm not backing off that one. You rock Sis. I've been taking a blogholiday but I'm back now. Talk atcha soon. Love you, mean it Sis!

nerima roberts said...

TY Brian,
Sometimes I just need to spill.
Thanks for listening.

nerima roberts said...

Oh C & B, I'm so happy to see you back on Blogland. I've been too busy these past few weeks and I miss my blog.